I lost my words, it’s not that I’ve had nothing to say or nothing worth writing just that I’ve felt so lost and broken down and voiceless. I’ve spent this whole morning laying in bed with tears rolling down my face. A steady stream of missing her, longing for her wishing I could reach […]Read more "529 days without Reason"
Day 20 has had me stuck for the last week. Forgiveness and humanity. Forgiving and accepting the humanity of myself and others. I don’t really know if I’m ready for this one and the project says to only do what we’re comfortable with. Can I forgive myself? Forgive my humanity? I am only human […]Read more "Capture Your Grief- Day 20. Forgiveness and Humanity"
Secondary lossess… I have so many it might be hard to talk about all of them. Before we lost Reason, my husband and I were far from well off but with his job and me breastfeeding and cloth diapering and hand me downs we had a pretty great thing going. Life was not easy […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 17. Secondary Losses"
My biggest creative outlet for my grief is writing my blog for one and poetry on occasion. I’ve also tried scrapbooking but I’ve only gotten a couple pages done. Maybe later I’ll work on that. I guess I’ll share a picture of my scap book and a couple poems I’ve written since the loss […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 16. Creative Grief"
Capture Your Grief, day 12 wants you to talk about the things we do in our grief that may seem a little strange or outside the realm of normal. I do a lot of things I didn’t do before my daughter died. I read books to her ashes which many people might find […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 12. Normalizing Grief."
Words. Words. Words. Today, Cqpture Your Grief, wants us to share words. I love words, clearly I write a lot of them. Words are so powerful, they can heal and they can hurt. They can break you down or build you up. We use words to connect and to distance ourselves. I use words […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 10. Words"
Today The Capture Your Grief project wants us to share a memory of our child. Memories are easy, I have so many amazing memories of my baby girl. Some of my favorite pictures we’re taken in October. My mom cut open a pumpkin and we took Reasons diaper off and put her inside the pumpkin […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015-Day 7. Memory"