I lost my words, it’s not that I’ve had nothing to say or nothing worth writing just that I’ve felt so lost and broken down and voiceless. I’ve spent this whole morning laying in bed with tears rolling down my face. A steady stream of missing her, longing for her wishing I could reach […]Read more "529 days without Reason"
Day 20 has had me stuck for the last week. Forgiveness and humanity. Forgiving and accepting the humanity of myself and others. I don’t really know if I’m ready for this one and the project says to only do what we’re comfortable with. Can I forgive myself? Forgive my humanity? I am only human […]Read more "Capture Your Grief- Day 20. Forgiveness and Humanity"
Secondary lossess… I have so many it might be hard to talk about all of them. Before we lost Reason, my husband and I were far from well off but with his job and me breastfeeding and cloth diapering and hand me downs we had a pretty great thing going. Life was not easy […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 17. Secondary Losses"
My biggest creative outlet for my grief is writing my blog for one and poetry on occasion. I’ve also tried scrapbooking but I’ve only gotten a couple pages done. Maybe later I’ll work on that. I guess I’ll share a picture of my scap book and a couple poems I’ve written since the loss […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 16. Creative Grief"
Capture Your Grief wants me to talk about my regrets and triggers. I have a lot of triggers. My regrets about my grief are mostly the way I behaved and the things I said in the early months after my daughter died, honestly thought I was so raw in those early days I don’t think […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 13. Regrets and Triggers"
Capture Your Grief, day 12 wants you to talk about the things we do in our grief that may seem a little strange or outside the realm of normal. I do a lot of things I didn’t do before my daughter died. I read books to her ashes which many people might find […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- Day 12. Normalizing Grief."
I had to take a couple days off from the Capture Your Grief project, the closer it gets to November the harder it is. I’m just gonna try to play catchup and pretend today is actually the 11th day of the project. Grief is a very dark place but sometimes you find your “glow […]Read more "Capture Your Grief 2015- day 11. Glow in the Woods"